I know I cannot say that other people cannot say certain things because quite frankly, they are just passerbys to me. I probably won't see them again, or at least not significantly enough for me to have a say on what they can or cannot do. Even if they were consistent, I have no power nor authority to tell them what to do.
The pain started from when a couple came in and then the girl addresses the guy as "my love". Naturally that made me think of the last time, well also the first time, I had referred to a girl as "my love". At first I tried to not pay much mind to it since that's technically a generic term that is used in many circumstances and instances.
The nail in coffin for today was when a young mother referred to her daughter, who phonetically shares the same name as the first girl who liked me back (who is also the same girl I had once called "my love" for those who are unaware and stumbled upon this blog).
I know I need to just move on. I can't be mad at anyone. I can't ask the girl to give it a shot. I can't keep lingering in the pain and the hurt that I cause myself from not properly dealing with the heartbreak. I don't know how else to deal with it. The only heartbreak I've experienced before was rejection. This time is deeper because there was a chance for more and everything.
I don't know what to do. I don't know where to turn to. Where do I go? How do I heal? When and how can I move on?
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